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I love u more

I love u more

by Robin

I love you more than all the stars in the sky. I love you more as each moment passes us by. I love you more with every breath I take. I love you more with each promise we make. I need you like a flower needs the rain. I need you for you can wash away my pain. I need you more each day I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way. I miss you more than ever now. I miss you because I really need you somehow. I miss you and your touch. I miss you for to me, you mean so much. I want you to caress my lips the way you always do. I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you. I want you to hold me close to your heart. I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you And I have for every single moment, right from the start.

Shouldn't we?

If we love each other so much then we should be with each other. Not apart. Why cant u see that my heart is breaking?.

What Good Is Love by Sass

What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. I traveled to another world, Out far beyond the one we knew, I thought that I could live again, And now I find I'm back with you. But what of hearts that beat as one, And what of passion and embrace, Is it too much to ask of you, To make these tears of mine erase. What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain. Too painful this - to journey back, To times of love and laughter free, The times we lay together with A sense of you , a sense of me. So now, I journey on alone, Forever wandering, in my thoughts, And I shall ask you once again, What good is love.

Screams Of Silence by Tim Chambers

Screams Of Silence

by Tim Chambers

Begone ye screams of silence, harbingers of pain

Cloaked in isolation, you mock in harsh disdain

My soul is torn asunder, I curse you, God of Hell

As you pierced my tortured soul, what horrors I befell.

You spoke of quiet solitude, to tempt me to your lair

Then lanced me in my troubled heart, to depths of dark despair

Nemesis, I beg of thee, rise up in righteous ire

Protect me from Tisiphone, from Hell's eternal fire

With all my voice I scream to you, protect me from the night

Alas, in forlorn desperation, I journey to the light

Banished to mind's Coventry, I heed the demon's call

Beckoned by the silent screams, I enter Dante's hall.

Mind by Darcy

Pale eyes, a blank expression,
wander through clouds of indescribable dreams.
Cold mist air, surrounded isolation
flaws my occupied mind
with either hate or death.
Something certain will be for always;
change in time forbids movement.
Fearing you understands myself;
help me open up, just a little more.

Death Of An Angel by Joseph Smith

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

Silence, Emptiness, And Confusion by Bek

Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed

There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray

Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread

Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.

shiokenene babay!

I Want Person B back!

i shall be happy...no thanks to you

leave you alone!

I'll just let you be ok?
Do what you want..

I don't care no more

A and B

Person B bitched about Person A...wtf?

Fuck you! Just Fuck you!

This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision.

Masseuse? as a career? Thinking abt it...

I really think i should open a massage shop...
start earning for the work of my magical fingers!hehe

Polaroid...cool or what?

Ayu and Me!!!

Its a lollipop stick...not a cigarette...

"Now that I got You back In My LIFE!!!"

"Now that I got You back In My LIFE!!!" by Shawtie Black

Now that I got you back in my life
I promise to never let you go
no more

You are with me now and forever
rather we are far or near

You have made me the happiest person alive
that me realize that friendship is strong

From all the mistakes I made with you
I learned to correct myself by your
guidance

Now that I have got you back there is nothing
or no one who can break me apart from you

You are the one and shall always be
because of the perfection you have in yourself
as a person

So now that I got you back in my life
I am here for you to comfort you

Your wish is my
command.

YAY! love you waisun...

Alone

I think I'd do better on my own, no friends, no fights,just me alone

Eyes don't tear

Just because my eyes don't tear doesn't mean my heart doesn't cry. And just because I comes off strong, doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.

lived too little

It's just one of those days Where I just want to disappear, To get away from everything, Because I hate my life here. Dying seems less sad than having lived too little.

Saddest!

For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those 'It might have been

Choose

You can choose to be happy or sad and whichever you choose that is what you get. No one is really responsible to make someone else happy, no matter what most people have been taught and accept as true.

Guilt

It is quite gratifying to feel guilty if you haven't done anything wrong: how noble! Whereas it is rather hard and certainly depressing to admit guilt and to repent.

Fucked up life

Messed up mind These voices are kind Don't know where I'm going anymore Things ain't seem what they used to, like before This world is breaking My hands are shaking Going no way I live from day to day It's a fucked up life And I'm searching for a knife To cut my throat On this no way road We all live to die Someday I will fly And I'm free Free to be who I am

I came across this poem which said exactly what i had in mind.

Your love is so true,
Just can’t help falling for you.
Your love shined eyes look deep in to mine,
Pull me close and lose track of time.

Love the way you’re holding my heart,
Want to jump the gun so our love can start.
Protective arms holding me tight,
Losing my mind in your power and might.

You’re the one I’m dreaming of,
Clock keeps ticking as we fall deeper in love.
With tender fingers your touch is like fire,
Sensations linger then turn to desire.

Words are easy when the language is love,
You know exactly what I’m thinking of.
I need you like water, like breath, like rain,
Need you like mercy from God and his reign.

All my life I’ve been,
Guessing who you might be.
Hoping that moment would still let me breath,
Finally found you, when you finally found me.

This poem is by KAT.

Never have i fallen

Your lips speak soft sweetness
Your touch a cool caress
I am lost in your magic
My heart beats within your chest

I think of you each morning
And dream of you each night
I think of your arms being around me
And cannot express my delight

Never have I fallen
But I am quickly on my way
You hold a heart in your hands
That has never before been given away

Do you get it?

I want to tell you something you should know,
Something that you might not want to hear.
It is, however, true of me, and so
If you would know me, I must make it clear.
I could not, nor would want to be aught else.
I am your friend and that I will be.
Please make a place for that within yourself.
Please love me as I am, as I love you
No differently from when I was a child.
I am the friend that you always knew
Save for one sweet way that fate has smiled.
Whatever you decide, I'll love you still,
For love heeds not the weather, but the will.

My cousin's coming of age ceremony

Last saturday there was my Cousin's coming of age ceremony.

I was there since morning, helping with the preparation and all that.

My mom FORCED me to wear the traditional costume.

Still I have my Million Dollar Smile... hahah

yeah, well i had fun and i have my cousin back. yay!

So, here are some of the pictures...

My Cousin and ME

ME and my MuMmY

Me and my Bro

ME and my SIS

No Matter...

In your eyes i see things, 

I know i cannot touch

I know not to reach for them

I let them touch me

And I cherish this moments

That I am able to share

However misleading it might be

French Poem

Long-Felt Desires
French Poem By Louise Labe

Long-felt desires, hopes as long as vain--
sad sighs--slow tears accustomed to run sad
into as many rivers as two eyes could add,
pouring like fountains, endless as the rain--
cruelty beyond humanity, a pain
so hard it makes compassionate stars go mad
with pity: these are the first passions I've had.
Do you think love could root in my soul again?
If it arched the great bow back again at me,
licked me again with fire, and stabbed me deep
with the violent worst, as awful as before,
the wounds that cut me everwhere would keep
me shielded, so there would be no place free
for love. It covers me. It can pierce no more. 



Douce Saint-Valentin d'amour
Le coeur qui crie l'amour,
pour cette femme tout les jours,
celle qui a notre coeur,
et notre bonheur ...

Une femme parfaite à nos yeux,
nos yeux tant amoureux,
on était à la recherche d'amour,
et enfin elle est là chaque jour ...

Une saint-valentin dans ses bras,
où on glisse des mots tout bas,
pour dire son amour,
qui pour elle durera toujours ...

Elle qui a notre coeur,
qui sèche nos pleurs,
et en cette belle saint-valentin,
cet amour ne fait qu'un ...

Certains attendent des bébés,
et d'autres seulement à s'aimer,
certains vont se mariés,
et d'autres l'amour fêté ..

CHEM

Photos taken in Chem LAB (hate the china faci!)

AYU became a GHOST!

Whats with Kin's Face?

i cant rmb from which angle this picture was taken from 

Still we both look soooo cute...

Im cute

Just One Wish

If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.

I love you

Like the stars in the sky,
I am calling to you.

From the heavens above,
I am looking for you.

In the depths of my soul,
I will live and breathe for you.

Sadness dwells inside you;
You have nothing to fear,

for I am next to you.
I can feel your sadness;

Let me be sad for you,
so you will feel love once again.

Worry not about life,
let me worry for you.

You should always love life,
for it is a part of you.

I'll be there when you fall,
to catch you and say I Love You...

Finding EMO

Beautiful Lover

We had our towers and then left them 
beyond the heights as we lay over clovers 
with the world on top 
that hoard of grass, weeds and clovers beneath our skin 
felt our hands unfold like burnt offerings to the sun and sweat 
and our loving found the roots of hope 
the panoramic views of faith in the starry night 
Our loving touches me 
the way clovers should be left in the fields 
and the way the praise of simple things etch our world 
the way the robin in a single flight 
can feat above the white stones 
and I feel 
content 
in the glorious 
and among the things so obvious to the eye 
that they become mysterious to the heart 
and our loving 
brings me the moon when it is dark 
and gives the soul hands to touch gently with 
no elevators needed 

FELL

heyhey!

During monday(biochem lesson) i fell during presentation. i was playing with the roller of the chair and it just rolled off. My butt hurt so bad... But it was Ok as i managed to entertain the class abit... haha... But still managed to get an A. In the comment the faci said, No horseplay during class please, sit properly and don't hurt yourself. ... LOL!... His RJ question was, Which classmates would you have teamed up with today to increase your chances of getting a better daily grade, and why? Then in the comment he says, Its not about who you get teamed up with actually because the daily grade is a reflection of an individual's performance in class and his/her learning attitude, and not about others.Then for what ask this question?... 

NDT!

Me, my sis and my bro.

I Cry

I cry for the time that you were almost mine, 

I cry for the memories I've left behind,

I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, 

I cry for the times I thought I had you.

But I am not going to cry no more,

I am over you!

Betrayed

The feeling of being in friendship is so intense that it feels like it will last forever. We can't believe that the other person doesn't feel the same way. We can't believe that this sacred relationship has been betrayed. You may have been sure that you were in the same wavelength and that you understood each other. Meanwhile, you have been walking on parallel and eventually divergent tracks the entire time. The feelings of betrayal and hurt may take many years to heal.

Hope You Know Its You!

Only you!

It's amazing how I feel when I'm around you,
How my heart pounds when you come into the room.
I look at you and think: My God! How beautiful!
And everything I am, bursts into bloom.

I feel as though you must, you must be mine,
Not as a possession but a goal,
Something almost unimaginable:
The free devotion of another soul.

As though I were about to enter heaven
Or just within the hour condemned to die,
My mind with one fierce thought keeps running over,
With you, and only you, the reason why.

Wanting,

to be held,

to be loved,

to feel warmth,

to feel your beating heart.

Wanting to be sheltered from the cold,

heartless winds.

Falling into invisible arms;

into an abyss of love.

Wishing,

hoping,

that my desires will be filled;

my desires of loving warmth.

Wanting to be held,

comforted,

loved.

Dreaming of passionate embraces,

of tender kisses,

loving words,

romantic nights.

Waiting for undying love.