Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
C'est la vie
i think its time i just let it all out. i get it ok? that i was a whore, a slut, a piece of shit that ruined your night. a night that was meant to have great fun. and i ruined it by being drunk and vomitting all over and kissing all the girls and even letting a bangla grind me.
i would really appreciate it if you guys could just stop for a second and think. u know me right? seriously would nan do such things? no. and i hate myself for doing all these. but then again, all these happenned and there is no going back. i was not myself and i did things that wasnt me. so, if u guys wanna judge me for that and start hating me go ahead. if u guys wanna hate me, the me, who wasnt me, go ahead. i did it while i was drunk. and i swear i have no recollection of all those ever happenning. but hey, it happened. i was in the wrong. i get it. i have apologised. so now, what else can one do? i cant even explain myself because i dont know i did those. i dont know why i did those. so go ahead. hate me. hating me is like nothing since i have already been kicked in the face!
and when i came back saturday night, my dad fed me rice la sia. who would do that? i have my friends. the ones who can see ME. and those are my real friends. and i have my family. who still love me for who i am.
i think i know why all those happened. cos i was an emotional bitch. i got drunk and was wayyyyy too emotional and it got the better of me. and then my friend told me that have to be stronger with the heart. and be a confident bitch!! yes. i will be. like what vshal said, 'u kinda have to make ur heart stone' i will. and im not just gonna say it. i'll show it.
oh well.... such is life.
i would really appreciate it if you guys could just stop for a second and think. u know me right? seriously would nan do such things? no. and i hate myself for doing all these. but then again, all these happenned and there is no going back. i was not myself and i did things that wasnt me. so, if u guys wanna judge me for that and start hating me go ahead. if u guys wanna hate me, the me, who wasnt me, go ahead. i did it while i was drunk. and i swear i have no recollection of all those ever happenning. but hey, it happened. i was in the wrong. i get it. i have apologised. so now, what else can one do? i cant even explain myself because i dont know i did those. i dont know why i did those. so go ahead. hate me. hating me is like nothing since i have already been kicked in the face!
and when i came back saturday night, my dad fed me rice la sia. who would do that? i have my friends. the ones who can see ME. and those are my real friends. and i have my family. who still love me for who i am.
i think i know why all those happened. cos i was an emotional bitch. i got drunk and was wayyyyy too emotional and it got the better of me. and then my friend told me that have to be stronger with the heart. and be a confident bitch!! yes. i will be. like what vshal said, 'u kinda have to make ur heart stone' i will. and im not just gonna say it. i'll show it.
oh well.... such is life.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
and then, its all my fault
i got kicked in the face had a cigarette flicked on my face. by a girl who later told me that she loved me. -_-' hmm... im just glad that i know who my real friends are. thank god i met waisun the morning after. that girl is a friend. a true one. she asked me if i would like it if waisun went to help me whack the girl who kicked me. haha.. i love u waisun. and vshal, what a brother i have. he told me he had my back. honestly man, if i didnt have these two ppl in my life, i wouldnt know what to do.
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